There's so many things I want to tell you, but I first want to tell you thank you. Thank you for being so strong. I honestly don't know where to start because your life has been a roller coaster.
Isabelita, you are worth so much more than you think. I'm sorry that your mom left you when you were only 9 months and you had to figure out self love yourself and struggled so much. It wasn't easy, you are now just learning your self worth but you're getting there and I love you for that. You are more than enough in God's eyes so stop looking to find your worth, in relationships, or other people's approval. The only approval you need is the approval of God and yourself.
Don't let your fears get in the way, follow your dreams. You have struggled with fear all your life, but I understand, you put a wall to everything because you're afraid to be rejected or left. Which is what has happened to you your whole life since you were born. With your parents leaving, all your relationships not working, you getting cheated on constantly and feeling so hurt and broken. There was a time when you even left yourself, you're true you, a beautiful gracious little girl that was always happy no matter how much pain she had in her heart. I just want to remind you that you choose faith over fear, and God promised you to never leave you as long as you trust him. Trust God and his plans not yours, he has the best way for you.
Don't let the past failure and obstacles hunt you, learn to let go and forgive the people that have wronged you. That is the only way to grow. Learn from your pain and use it for good, don't do what was done to you never not even to your worst enemy. Instead bless the people that have hurt you and pray for them.
Love yourself unconditionally, with your flaws and all. You're so beautiful just the way you are. Skinny, fat, long or short hair, with makeup on or without makeup. You have accomplished so much all by yourself. Give yourself some credit. You're amazing, stop being so hard on yourself you're imperfectly beautiful.
Also don't chase love babygirl, the person that truly loves you will never leave. You're not gonna have to chase them or beg them to stay, you're not going to beg the person to take you out for dinner, or travel with you or just simply be with you. What for you will never leave you alone! always remember that.
Younger me, be grateful for all you have, always. You are truly blessed. Remember when you worked at LA Fitness making $11 an hour cleaning a gym? Look at how far you have come, you have your own house, your dream car, you always dreamed of having a white Mercedes Benz and look, that's the car you're driving now! You're blessed with a handsome son that's healthy and is very smart.
Be thankful for the people that love you and support you and always give the same love and support you want to receive from others.
Love, Claritza
- Future self, you're going to be a successful business woman just like you always dreamed, you're gonna live a life of abundance, buy your dream house and accomplish all of your dreams In the name of Jesus. You will find that white, loyal handsome man you always dreamed of. He will love you unconditionally regardless of all that you have been through and he will never let you go ☺
